Passion...

waa~~ I can't decide what to think about summer... I like it because their is no school. But its so damn hot!!! And just yesterday their is some problems about water... jeezz... right! Want to watch Spiderman 3 and POTC 3.. haha!

I hope my NBI will be really be release now!!! Damn! its so hot there in the municipal building!

Waa!! I'm getting addicted now to Bleach.. Waa!! Hitsugaya is just so cool!! I like Hinamori, Rukia, Ichigo is alright.. hehe!, Renji and Urahara!!! haha! Waa! can't get enough of it.. I hope the new episodes will be soon!

Oh! this summer I've been looking for a summer job for already 3 days! haha! It was really a hussle, most likely in the money matters. haha! the transportion money is really making my pocket empty. I have already 2 interviews.. Tomorrow I will have my final interview on Enchanted Kingdom. Good Luck to me! haha!

Darn this adprac thing!! My head is already spinning with this stupid marketing mix research which is given to us for only 1 week! what the fuck! Its already vacation and that stupid prof is giving us more headache which is on the first place is his mistake. stupid fucking idiot!

waa~~ my head is going round and round... and round... Hitsugaya... Hitsugaya...

let me shine... I feel a bit light hearted now.. some of my hard feelings are now a bit lift up. I want to thank my friends... I thought I was alone.. and will always be... We think we are alone because we "think" we are alone. but if you look closely you are the one making yourself alone.

I want to shine once again. I know it will be a long process... but I know I can do it. I should be more honest with myself. I keep blabbing about this and that... telling other people what to do.. but even myself can do better of myself. I want to improve myself for good. I know there so many people that will help me. I know.

I still linger and fear the outcome... I keep blabbing about this and that. I want to punch their shitty faces!!!

It was really a hard day to me... I was planning to sell something but no one wanted it. I was really frustrated, I really need money. When I was handling the one that I want to sell I can see myself in it. I don't want to sell it but I really need to. Anyone don't want to take it or they give it a little value. They didn't know how much it really cost and how much it meant to me.

I was walking and walking... My feet really hurts badly. I was not in the a very good mood when I went to school. I do my DRFL plate on school. Its not so good because I'm not in the mood and my mind is so occupied. I do so many things this day... I was really tired. I want to lay down and let my mind wonder.

Then Pia and I went to recto to bet on lotto. I hope we win. haha!

I didn't do my compre also in Ad design... I was really not in the mood. I want to not to attend class also but Pia convinced me to. But still I didn't do my compre. She didn't also. haha! We just do some things and talk and talk. Then she said to me that sir have already check in his record that I have already passed my compre. hahaha! I'm so lucky! then I help her on her compre.

I'm a bit alright now but still thinking about tomorrow. Que sera sera.

Another, Reiko commented again in my friendster account... what the heck! Whateva! Don't have time with him. More things are swimming in my head now.

Waa~~ what a exhausting day! My feet really hurts a lot! Pia and I were in school all day! She have to do her graphics and I have to go to the main building to renew my lost registration form.

Then in the afternoon we walk throughout the school (outside the school, I mean) to look for a place where we can buy a lotto ticket. haha! We planned to bet in it in a chance to win big moneh!!! wahahaha! But we can't find any so the result... so tired. My feet really hurts! Darn!

I know a place were we can buy a lotto ticket but its a bit far.. hm.. We know we can win! hahaha! Whateva!

Oh.. tomorrow, there so many things to do.. Its all plan in my head. I hope I can do that all. But of course not, because not all that you want will be given to you so I hope it will be still be ok, even though a little bit. hehe! Pls...

darn! My schedule is a mess! I had been already planned for a week that I will go to Pampanga with my other groupmates to do our finals in Natsci... but that stupid and demanding dubject NSTP have its final presention on sunday. My leader in there said that attendace is a must there. Stupid subject. Why cannot they tell us something more earlier... always on 2nd or the day before the evant they said this and that... we students are always cramming what to do all of a sudden. stupid.

And there's another. I have this friend who really irritates me. I don't give a damn about her. I have already did what I have to do and I think its her part what she will do. Shit. I'm so tired.

Oh... on monday its my younger sis birthday. I have already bought her a cd though... I was planning to buy her a new shirt also but I have no money. Stupid graphics. so expensive.

waa~~ really exhausting day! Graphics day is exhausting day for me! haha! Nice also in some part... but again the situation in our class gets worst just a while ago. My classmate that is really calm and very cheerful just snap/crack. She was mad. I didn't saw it but our president was really offended and also mad when she came back to our classroom. Things got worse and worse.

some of my classmates decided to have a special open forum for them... I don't want to meddle in things that doesn't concern me but that doesn't mean I have no concern with them. It's just that, its their problem and let them solve it. My existance there will not make anything change. Let them change it for theirselves.

And also... so many things to think of myself. Waa~~~

There something going on.. and not really nice. People are having their own seperate ways now. Maybe its really part of growing up and the passing of time. People change. Our surrounding change. Our minds and hearts change. We change. Because that is part of it.

I have read Eros Atalia's "Manual sa Pagpapatiwakal" (Manual for Commiting Suicide) really nice. Reminds me of Bob Ong a bit but not really. They have the same humor but still different. He have his own way to tell the readers his message. Eros' style is more dark but still funny. The book is really nice.

I think people that saw me reading it will thought I want to commit suicide or I'm insane. haha! Like what is said... Don't judge a book by its cover or merely its title.

Went to manila several times this weekend. Yesterday to do our finals in Ad design... but the one who planned it is the one who didn't show up... Great! but Joza and I emailed some of the ads that he can do in his house... while we make the collaterals in it. We think its pair enough.

Now I went again in Manila for the practice in play... I was shocked last night when Joza texted me that the meeting time will be 10am! so early! (to my part.. hehe!) so I arrived at 10:30am... there is still few people in our group... then we wait... we wait... I read and talk... and wait... and 11:45am our leader showed up at last! but some of our groupmates have already went home to do their own ads... Joza and I also planning to leave at 12noon because of ad too... *sigh* What a real great waste of time. He didn't excused himself also... maybe he have no excuse... he just say sorry... but at least he texted one of us so we know what to do! He is the one saying that if you're gonna be late texed some of our groupmates. yeah, nice exmaple.

anyway... When I was on the bus... I was watching on its tv a movie of Fernando Poe jr. "Hagedorn". hahaha! If I haven't watch the true Hagedorn in Totoo Tv I will surely I will not understand much of it. haha!

It was nice and funny. Funny that I'm laughing not because they are doing jokes... it was just really funny. While I'm watching I remember Tejero... He also watched some Tagalog movies... Tagalog action-packed movies, I mean.. haha! I know he commneted sometime a movie from "I don't remember the title" about a banana... that he want to be a banana... at least it has a heart. haha! stupid. true. and clever.

waa~~ so tired. There so many things to do... Last sunday we went to Ternate, Cavite to do some tree planting... it was nice... I didn't expected it.. haha! Because that tree planting really pissed me off because I have so many things to do! Like watching tv! haha! And doing plates... (my 2nd priority.. haha!)

I had already watched all Lost episodes... Season 3 episode 6... It is still on hiatus... I think the new episode is on May... Not sure. For what I have watched in Season 3... hm... I'm not happy with it!!! waa!!! not much charlie scene! they focus much on the JAck-Kate-Sawyer love triangle... I don't care about them! haha! Joke! I like they're stories but they're past stories also about love.. love.. love... Oh my gulay! I hope the new episodes will be more interesting. Love the season 1 and 2. Really2x great! but I love the ending season more of season 1... haha!

Oh! I found two annoying people today! haha! want to punch their faces!!! grr...

haha! this day is a bit exhausting.. Pia and I went to SM manila this morning to buy our collaterals in our ad plate... we wal and walk and walk! haha! I have no money already!

There is no Natsci again today so Pat invited us to watch a movie in Gateway but I have no money and I need to do my ad plate already. So we just accompanied her in the parlor because she want to get her hair trimmed! Then after that Pia and I went home. While Pat and the others went to the movie.

Nothig happened that much but it was really a fun and exhausting that too! haha! I chat a bit to suzy also... We talked about something really funny! haha!

Anyway... Happy Valentines too all!! SMASHING!!! =p

I'm not in my good health for a week already... But I have no fever... but I always feels sleepy.. maybe because of the medicines that I'm taking. And last weekend I don't do anything but to watch lost... lost... lost.. lost... on dvd! haha! I love lost! Last episode that I watch is Season 2 Episode 5... I love charlie and Claire!!! waa! they are so cool!! charlie is kinda cute also! wahahaha! baby aaron is cute also! haha!

1. What Curse Word Do You Use The Most?
Shit

2. Do You Own An Ipod?
nope.

3. What Person On Your Top 8-12 Do You Talk To The Most?
huh?? 8-12 years old??? my siblings??

4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set To?
depends on what will I do that day.

5. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?
nope.

6. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?
take the picture. haha!

7. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
in the cinema.. hm... Inang Yaya. in dvd/vcd... forest gump.

8. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?
nope.

9. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
many, haha!

10. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
nope.

11. What Cd Is Currently In Your Cd Player?
I don't have a cd player.. haha!

12. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?
I don't like chocolate and milk that much.. haha!

14. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
Hm.. can't remember...

15. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
last month.

16. Can You Whistle?
nope.

18. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
maybe. you can't fight that.

19. Did You Watch Cartoons As A Child?
of corz!

20. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
Harry Potter 2! hehe!

21.Have You Ever Done The Dirty In A Field?
the dirty???

23. Do You Own Any Band T-Shirts?
nope.

24. What Is Your Favorite Salad Dressing?
can't understand.. haha!

25. Is Anyone In Love With You?
I don't know...

27. Ever Cry In Public?
yup.

28. Are You On A Desktop Computer Or A Lap Top?
desktop.

29. Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoo?
nope.

30. What's The Weather Like?
its a bit sunny and cloudy at the same time.

31. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
nope.

32. What Did You Do Before This?
yup. long long time ago and I feel I miss this. haha!

33. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
last week! haha! On my classmate's dorm!

34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
depends.

35. Do You Eat Breakfast Daily?
sometimes.

36. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?
I don't know.

37. Do You Pay Attention To The Calories In The Package/Box?
sometimes. I'm not concious... I'm a bit observant.. haha!

38. Do You Use Sarcasm?
yes, a lot of times I think. haha!

40. Are You Picky About Spelling And Grammar?
no. I'm poor at grammar! haha!

41. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
huh?

43. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
same sex I think... can't understand the mind of the opposite sex..

44. Do You Like Mustard?
nope.

45. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach Or Back?
all.

46. Do You Watch The News?
nope.

47. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars?
I was hit accidentally by a bike! haha!

48. Who Was The Last Person To Make You Mad?
can't remember... I don't really get mad this times.

49. Do You Like Anybody?
yah!

50.What Is The Last Thing You Purchased?
a yarn and a one hole puncher!

I buy also a Fantastic children dvd... hehe! I hope its fantastic!

I registered (by mere accident... haha!) in the GS EXHIBIT ON AQUA TOURISM w/ the college of tourism. The last submission of artworks is on feb 18. next will be the studies. *sigh* so many things to do.. I can do this! woo!! haha! still have to think of a concept there.. on my ad also... nyahahaha! whatever... whatever...

Oh! I remember HAR was nice today because I passed the (horrifying, brain sqeezing) quiz! and the we do the discus throwing in PE! it was really, really cool!!! It was like throwing a big shuriken!!! hahaha! so cool.. so cool...

I have no plate for this day but I'm so exhausted... My classmate Pat and Pia and I do Pat's cousin's poster paint project "Buhay Tulay". It was so big so we didn't sleep at all. We just take 30 minute naps once in a while but fortunately we finished 1/4 of it! haha! I hope we get big cash for that! hahaha! =p

Our school department is implenting a new rule again with the proper school uniform and appearance. It is implemented on all students and professors... Its a BIG, BIG CRAP!!!! Hello world???!!! We're fine arts student!!! We stand for being different... what's with this image thingy they are saying??? are we actors for something or anything?? One thing is for sure... artist hate pretending.

Some protest some not... and I protest! We were our respected uniforms but every detail of it to be noticed.. well that's a new topic.. Image... stupid people who just think of others think of them. Creativity and skill is what matters here! shit! If someone is look respectable will he/she be respectable and good inside too??? sometime (in my experience) those are the people who lack sincerity to their student... they don't care at all... they feel sooo superior to their student!!! even though they don't teach well that much.. I don't say they are not good but they don't really care if the student will understand what they are saying on the shitty subject!

I admire mr. salvatus though... my ad prof... he stand for his student and he is really helping students when they need his help! unlike the others who are very strict as if they heaven and we are earth dirt.

Based on Article 13 "everyone have the right to express his/herself..."

waa~~ now I'm so sick... I'm sick definitely! but this day was really good though even though I'm sick... I hope I get better very soon!

waa~~~ I'm getting all sleepy all day! I feel weak also... I think I'm getting sick... Its so cold.. *shivers*

How frustrating... there is something I know I want to find but can't find it because I have know I idea what it is! this is getting nowhere... as usual the action I'm doing is WAiting... and waiting... and waiting... don't know where I'll go.